Cookies for breakfast!

Amos has been looking at me with disgust all morning. It is not unusual for me to waddle out of bed and head straight for the kitchen. I have always loved breakfast the most of the three dining opportunities during a day but since pregnancy I have enjoyed the first meal of the day that much more! Plus, I usually wake up ravenous in the mornings since I guess there is a little guy taking in any of my post-dinner snacking from the night before. This morning was no exception but with one exception - chocolate chip cookies! I made them yesterday to take to a friend who had a sweet little baby boy a few weeks ago. I ate 3 before we even delivered the meal. The friends ate one. That's it - one. I then ate two on the way home. I hid the container from myself so I wouldn't find it this morning. I woke up and went straight to my super hidden spot in the pantry and I ate 2.5 more this morning for breakfast. I added milk so I guess there is something good in this news flash. They were that good but I do think some of this is that emotional eating that occurs when a woman feels anxiety. I don't know exactly what I am anxious about but I am sure this is the cause of my cookie monstering of late.

This is the birth month of the kiddo. Yes, I guess he may be late and we could be looking at a June birthday but I have a strong feeling this won't be the case. More so, for possible changing insurance reasons we are hoping this whole thing goes down before May 31st. Maybe this makes me anxious? Babies are a funny thing. You prepare as long as you do (and in our case - twice as long) as you do for a wedding yet in the end and after all the preparation mentally and physically - you have no clue how it will all go down. I'd like to think I can sit back and relax and soak in these last few weeks of a party of 3 (including Amos) but seriously, I don't know how that really happens when you are about to see a human come out of your own body. Sorry for the graphic details but I just can't fathom any normalcy surrounding this event. We are thrilled that May is finally here but yes, a little anxious to see how this will all go down. If ever a feeling of lack of control this is it and this is probably the exact place God wants me.....to fully grasp His control and purpose in my life and my helplessness.

Today is also a big day in our household and it pains me to not be able to say more about why this is such a big day. There are sure to be updates to come but I think this will be one of those days, too, where we just see God in a big way in the details of our lives. I am glued to my phone to await any updates from Mr. Brad. And I would like, too, to just be normal today and do my usual Friday things but I don't think there is supposed to be normalcy today. Therefore, I will eat cookies for any meal I want and even in between and just sit here with Amos - happily in the cozy condo and wait for some answers.

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On other notes. I saw this segment on the Today show this morning. I am usually not one to fall to some good marketing but catch me at 37 weeks pregnant and at home with a brain looking to be distracted and I am a sucker. Supposedly these little "tubs" have been big in the UK for years and have started to make a come back now in the U.S. I think our little guy needs one. I love how there legs are all coddled up just like in the womb. I have found that any product that mimics the womb is a sure to be hit with new moms-to-be like myself. Anything to remind the newest people in the world of their home for 9+ months and to bring serenity to a household is sure to be a best seller. Unfortunately, the Tummy Tub isn't in baby's budget this month unless we just find the right sized bucket somewhere??? Maybe this will occupy my mind today. I need a bucket for my baby.


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Check out the results so far for our baby poll. I have loved checking this site lately to see our friends and family's predictions. Y'all are too funny...here are a few of our favorite (and we hope most accurate guesses!) As we mentioned before - there is sure to be some reward for the best guess. Place your guess here if you haven't already!

NAME?? WEIGHT? HEIGHT? B'DATE WHO AM I???

Grandma Cindy boy 7 lbs 6 ozs 20 in May 24, 9:00 am Plains GA Baby B's daddy is my little boy and the light of my life.

Charlsie boy 6 lbs 11 ozs 20 in May 23, 10:10 am Augusta GA I've had a long standing crush on Betsy and I went on a date with Brad once.

Bradford boy 7 lbs 2 ozs 20 in May 26, 6:04 pm Atlanta GA I sleep with baby's mama.

Amos the Dog boy 10 lbs 4 ozs 21 in Jun 10, 4:00 pm Atlanta GA This thing has intruded my life. I just want a belly rub! (But I know we'll be best friends soon)

uncle matt boy 7 lbs 6 ozs 20 in May 25, 8:00 pm greenville SC using my advanced medical degree and mathematical odds

Diane Scott boy 8 lbs 7 ozs 20 in May 27, 5:30 am Atlanta GA I am maybe Betsy's newest , yet "oldest " friend !

Aunt Victoria boy 7 lbs 2 ozs 19 in May 22, 7:10 am Americus GA Baby B's daddy is my wonderful brother.

nicole lane boy 6 lbs 10 ozs 20 in May 24, 7:18 am alpharetta GA baby b's potential mother-in-law

tanise boy 7 lbs 10 ozs 21 in May 10, 8:00 pm kennesaw GA babymama's mama, aka, Nise